in case you can't tell...

... i'm trying to make my goal of 30 posts in 30 days. and since i took a week off, unintentionally of course, i am attempting to make up for it. not sure what to write about. meg is taking a little nap, dylan is playing and i am blogging. not much else so i guess that's it for today.

in a related story...

... meghan has her first tooth! she had been having teething symptoms like spitting up all the time, chewing on everything and lots of drool all of a sudden since about 2 months old (end of september). then finally on her 4 month birthday (november 28th) her first tooth popped through! its been awful since then. she's up every two hours or more often at night where she was sleeping 6-10 hours straight. she's constantly drooling and in pain. sometimes she wakes up screaming in the middle of the night.

sometimes drew and i are just at wits end because she can scream her little heart out. drew even broke down and called his mom for her advice and asked her to come over on her way home from bringing his sister to work, but she was unable to. and i completely understand. she's a mommy to 12, with 10 still at home and the youngest two are 5 and 3. she has her own family to take care of. drew got all upset and offended because she wasn't able to come out. of course he is the oldest and thinks everything should be his when he demands it. oh well. atleast i understood.

ok dr, whatever you say...

... dr's can say whatever they want but teething and diarrhea are directly connected! meghan hasn't pooped this often ever. she pooped 5 times yesterday. and not just a little fart/poop, i mean full on/full size regular poops. she's already pooped twice today before 930am! my poor baby.

for the love of pete...

... i don't know who pete is, but he needs some love. and so do i. i need some love in the manner of a maid. to clean the kitchen and the bathroom and meghan's room and do the laundry and the dishes and the dusting and the vacuuming.

and don't forget, start dinner. every day is so overwhelming. adding dylan to the mix i just do not have the time, nor do i make the time to get things done around here. our apt is in complete disarray. constantly. and when i try and clean up on the weekends when dh could be watching meghan, he says to leave it. ugh. it is frustrating.

and now a little note on religion

this is something i've been meaning to write about for a while. i feel conflicted regarding religion. when i was little my dad's girlfriend would take us to a baptist church in a small town near home but since then i haven't had any other exposure to religion. i think i've always felt some sort of higher power is out there watching over us, dictating our every move. i also believe that when my sister was attacked and almost murdered i came to a turning point in my faith.

i was devastated. i was so angry that He had let this happen to her. why didn't He send someone better to help her than the woman in the car who was too scared to get out. i came to realize that he has a plan for everyone and perhaps this was the only way to get rid of dylan's father. perhaps now the right person and my sister will find each other and she can finally get her happy ending.

that's all for now. the kids are napping and i'm enjoying this relative silence.

ok 2 for today

that's right ladies and gentlemen, 2 posts for today. the first will continue on my last post. so, four days out of the week, my older sister works at a doctor's office about five minutes away from my house. dylan then gets to spend all day with me and "baby meghan" (as he affectionately calls her).

i admit, it's a trial. everyday. unfortunately he's got quite the attitude and acts out his aggression violently. he often does things he knows are bad like hitting, kicking, throwing things, and generally disobedience.

but we're working on it. i try and be a good example and leader so he can make the right decisions.

we also working on potty training. like i said, a trial.

must try harder

well so much for the one post a day for 30 days. but i think i can make up for it my doing double posts. so the first one for today is about what i do everyday:

i'm a stay at home mom!!

and i love it. a little background:

drew and i started dating in high school i was 15 he was 17, one grade apart. he proposed the following year before he went to college in a big college city near the big lake about 30 minutes away from home. i of course accepted, we totally in love and clueless. i used to daydream about how many kids we'd have and i always said that i would stay at home because my one dream in life was to be a mommy.

so fast forward 9ish years when we get pregnant and i want to leave my customer service job to stay at home with our new baby. drew and i were in disagreement for a few months, he's rather have 2 incomes. but finally we decided that we couldn't leave meghan at a daycare and it wouldn't make sense to drive her 30 minutes in the opposite direction in my mil had offered to watch her.

so now i spend my days basking in the light of meghan that we have been blessed with.