hmm. i tried to text a picture to my blog but it didn't work. good to know.
meg slept for 50 minutes in the bassinet, then another 30 minutes later that same night. but wouldn't go back in after that. better than not at all i suppose. i just don't want her to be 5 and still in our bed. which i hope won't happen and shouldn't especially if we have more children.
i had drew take the portable air conditioner
(wrote all that this morning at 1am then meghan woke up so i went back to bed, now its wednesday morning)
so i had drew take the portable air conditioner out of the window the other night and now it is a lot more quiet at night. plus the weather has finally turned cool and the hot summer seems to be over! fall is my favorite season, the changing leaves, everything smells crisp and lots of baking! i made apple crisp last night and it was delicious with vanilla ice cream all melty and goood. yum!
of course as i was lying in bed last night i had all kinds of things i needed to write about and google. and now i can't remember any of it.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
sleeping through the night
it only lasted 50 minutes. but she went to sleep without a breast in her mouth. this is just the beginning. after meghan woke up, we stayed up until it was the next feeding time. that time she fell asleep while eating, but i was able to move her to the bassinet without waking her up. she's there right now, we'll see how long this lasts. haha.
atleast i know my text-post worked. nothing else too new. today meg was sort of sitting up with assistance. it's funny to watch because she slooowly falls over and i have to catch/steady her.
atleast i know my text-post worked. nothing else too new. today meg was sort of sitting up with assistance. it's funny to watch because she slooowly falls over and i have to catch/steady her.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
ugh. get over this hump.
so i've been trying to post meghan's birth story for the last three weeks. literally. i haven't finished it yet so i'll just post it when it's done. at any rate, the most important facts are:
meghan louise is here!
born wednesday 7-28-10
at 1:29 pm
weighing 7 pounds 8 ounces
measuring 21 inches long!
she came via c-section after 42 hours of induced labor (more on this in her birth story post) but everything is going great, no problems so far. except for the fact it looks like i'll be watching the sun rise today. we went to bed around 10, meg fell right asleep and me not long after. then i woke up at 2 am, tossed and turned until 330am and decided to get up and surf the web! i know i should be doing something constructive like cleaning or putting away the groceries, but oh well. drew says leave the cleaning until monday but i don't think he gets how hard it is to do anything with a newborn around! especially since she doesn't nap very much and only for about 20 minutes at a time.
i think i might be suffering from the insomnia due to stress. our car broke down today. granted, it's a 97 olds 88 with lots of scratches, dents, rust and 175,000 miles, but we really cannot afford a new car until tax time in february. i was driving down the main road in our town today going from bed bath and beyond to walmart. (this main road is 2 lanes on both sides, mind you) and i heard/felt banging underneath the car like i had run over something. i looked out the back and didn't see anything and the driver behind me was acting normal so i didn't think anything of it until i went around a curve and didn't have any power steering! so i managed to get the walmart parking lot. i changed and fed meghan (not an easy task in the car, ps) then i checked the engine and the belt was shredded. so i called drew-he and cousin joey went and bought a belt while i started shopping at walmart.
drew called saying a belt wasn't going to cut it before i was even a 1/3 of the way finished with the groceries. i went out to the parking lot and drew showed me where a coil was broken on the auto tensioner (?? we're not totally sure) i called my dad and he said not to bother putting the belt on. so we're calling someone in the am to follow us out to my dad's house while aaa tows my car.
now that i've vented maybe i'll be able to fall back asleep.
meghan louise is here!
born wednesday 7-28-10
at 1:29 pm
weighing 7 pounds 8 ounces
measuring 21 inches long!
she came via c-section after 42 hours of induced labor (more on this in her birth story post) but everything is going great, no problems so far. except for the fact it looks like i'll be watching the sun rise today. we went to bed around 10, meg fell right asleep and me not long after. then i woke up at 2 am, tossed and turned until 330am and decided to get up and surf the web! i know i should be doing something constructive like cleaning or putting away the groceries, but oh well. drew says leave the cleaning until monday but i don't think he gets how hard it is to do anything with a newborn around! especially since she doesn't nap very much and only for about 20 minutes at a time.
i think i might be suffering from the insomnia due to stress. our car broke down today. granted, it's a 97 olds 88 with lots of scratches, dents, rust and 175,000 miles, but we really cannot afford a new car until tax time in february. i was driving down the main road in our town today going from bed bath and beyond to walmart. (this main road is 2 lanes on both sides, mind you) and i heard/felt banging underneath the car like i had run over something. i looked out the back and didn't see anything and the driver behind me was acting normal so i didn't think anything of it until i went around a curve and didn't have any power steering! so i managed to get the walmart parking lot. i changed and fed meghan (not an easy task in the car, ps) then i checked the engine and the belt was shredded. so i called drew-he and cousin joey went and bought a belt while i started shopping at walmart.
drew called saying a belt wasn't going to cut it before i was even a 1/3 of the way finished with the groceries. i went out to the parking lot and drew showed me where a coil was broken on the auto tensioner (?? we're not totally sure) i called my dad and he said not to bother putting the belt on. so we're calling someone in the am to follow us out to my dad's house while aaa tows my car.
now that i've vented maybe i'll be able to fall back asleep.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
meghan's birth story
meghan louise was born 7-28-10 after 42 hours of labor and an unplanned c section. this is where we left off:
i went to the dr on friday 7-23 for my 39th week check up/sono/non-stress test and meghan was measuring 8 pounds 14 ounces. dr. f decided we should be induced monday night at 6 pm if she still wasn't here on her own. i had been having very light sporadic contractions for the last couple of days but nothing that went anywhere. i really only noticed them during the nst because i could see them on the print out.
on monday 7-26, drew went to work (since he would be with me in the hospital for only a couple days we thought) with our only car, so his mom, kim, came out to drive me to my appointment at 3. drew's done with work at 430 so he was either going to meet us at home or at the hospital at 6. well, poor kim was waiting in the waiting room at the dr office because i was in there for 2 hours! dr. f had to call the hospital and tell them we'd be late.
so kim and i met drew at our apartment, we got all packed up for the hospital and met kim at burger king for my last meal before heading to the hospital. we got to the hospital at 7, only an hour late. we got checked in, settled and i changed into hospital gowns. they started with cervadil at 8pm, which is inserted vaginally, looks sort of like a tiny tampon on a string and you have to lay down while it's in, so they start it at night so you can sleep through it. cervadil starts ripening the cervix. due to being induced, they have to monitor the baby the whole time. well, i NEVER sleep on my back and if i tried to roll over onto my side, the monitor would lose the baby. sleep was inaccessible to me. i got a few snippets here and there and the nurse would let me sleep on my side for a half hour at a time but would eventually come in and wake me up to make me lay on my back again.
at midnight they inserted the first round of misoprostol which is a tiny pill inserted into the cervix to continue ripening the cervix. i was dosed again at 4am and 8am. dr. f came in and checked me, i was finally 100% effaced and we could start pitocin to get my contractions going. i begged to have breakfast because i hadn't eaten dinner since the night before. breakfast finally arrived at 10am and we started pitocin at 11am. that's when things finally got interesting.
contractions picked up and were coming every 3-5 minutes lasting maybe 30 seconds in length. this continued all day and night into the next morning. dr. b was now on call and allowed me to eat breakfast before we decided on our next move. i wanted to continue as contractions were every few minutes lasting 60 seconds or more. i was really feeling the pain and got some stadol to take off the edge. i'm firmly against epidurals being that our bodies were meant to deliver babies and i should be able to handle the pain! (haha, i needed that stadol like my life depended on it)
around 1pm dr. b came in to check me and i was still at 4 cm as i had been earlier that morning. dr. b suggested a c-section and i protested firmly because i wanted to keep going. i wanted to have my baby naturally. i wanted to go without drugs and feel every movement, work with my body and contractions to get meghan born. i didn't want her born into a drug induced stupor were she slept for days. i gave into his request that we do a c-section because he said someone was scheduled at 130pm so we need to do it now and i had just gotten a shot of stadol and i was literally falling asleep as he was asking us what we wanted to do.
i was so upset after i consented i was in tears in between falling asleep. i wanted so badly to bring meghan into the world in the most natural way and i had failed her. i felt like i had given up when i could've done more for her. i could've given her the best birth experience and i made the decision to put myself through seemingly unnecessary surgery and a drug drunk birth.
at the same time i feel like i was pushed into 'deciding' on a c-section. no one who was in the delivery room with me (dh, mil, my parents) even questioned me having a c-section despite me adamantly denying that i wanted one earlier during my labor. yet i can only blame myself for the decision. i still cry when i see a natural or vaginal birth on tv.
too make matters worse, now that i've had a c-section my chances of having to have another one are high and there are only 2 hospitals in my area that allow vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean) one is the hospital i gave birth at and the other is in a college city about 1 1/2 hours away from where we live now, a 1/2 hour from the small town our parents live in. so not easy to get there from our current home.
so we went in for a c-section at that time, dh got all suited up in scrubs and they wheeled me into surgery. i kept falling in and out of sleep and i was falling asleep as they tried to do an epidural. i was screaming from the pain of the shots to numb the area, i even swore at the anesthesiologist! the surgery itself only took about 20 minutes and dh was there throughout the whole thing. i could feel tugging and other sensations while they were pulling meg out but i couldn't see a thing.
meghan louise was born at 129pm on wednesday july 28th, weighing in at 7 lbs 8 oz!
i went to the dr on friday 7-23 for my 39th week check up/sono/non-stress test and meghan was measuring 8 pounds 14 ounces. dr. f decided we should be induced monday night at 6 pm if she still wasn't here on her own. i had been having very light sporadic contractions for the last couple of days but nothing that went anywhere. i really only noticed them during the nst because i could see them on the print out.
on monday 7-26, drew went to work (since he would be with me in the hospital for only a couple days we thought) with our only car, so his mom, kim, came out to drive me to my appointment at 3. drew's done with work at 430 so he was either going to meet us at home or at the hospital at 6. well, poor kim was waiting in the waiting room at the dr office because i was in there for 2 hours! dr. f had to call the hospital and tell them we'd be late.
so kim and i met drew at our apartment, we got all packed up for the hospital and met kim at burger king for my last meal before heading to the hospital. we got to the hospital at 7, only an hour late. we got checked in, settled and i changed into hospital gowns. they started with cervadil at 8pm, which is inserted vaginally, looks sort of like a tiny tampon on a string and you have to lay down while it's in, so they start it at night so you can sleep through it. cervadil starts ripening the cervix. due to being induced, they have to monitor the baby the whole time. well, i NEVER sleep on my back and if i tried to roll over onto my side, the monitor would lose the baby. sleep was inaccessible to me. i got a few snippets here and there and the nurse would let me sleep on my side for a half hour at a time but would eventually come in and wake me up to make me lay on my back again.
at midnight they inserted the first round of misoprostol which is a tiny pill inserted into the cervix to continue ripening the cervix. i was dosed again at 4am and 8am. dr. f came in and checked me, i was finally 100% effaced and we could start pitocin to get my contractions going. i begged to have breakfast because i hadn't eaten dinner since the night before. breakfast finally arrived at 10am and we started pitocin at 11am. that's when things finally got interesting.
contractions picked up and were coming every 3-5 minutes lasting maybe 30 seconds in length. this continued all day and night into the next morning. dr. b was now on call and allowed me to eat breakfast before we decided on our next move. i wanted to continue as contractions were every few minutes lasting 60 seconds or more. i was really feeling the pain and got some stadol to take off the edge. i'm firmly against epidurals being that our bodies were meant to deliver babies and i should be able to handle the pain! (haha, i needed that stadol like my life depended on it)
around 1pm dr. b came in to check me and i was still at 4 cm as i had been earlier that morning. dr. b suggested a c-section and i protested firmly because i wanted to keep going. i wanted to have my baby naturally. i wanted to go without drugs and feel every movement, work with my body and contractions to get meghan born. i didn't want her born into a drug induced stupor were she slept for days. i gave into his request that we do a c-section because he said someone was scheduled at 130pm so we need to do it now and i had just gotten a shot of stadol and i was literally falling asleep as he was asking us what we wanted to do.
i was so upset after i consented i was in tears in between falling asleep. i wanted so badly to bring meghan into the world in the most natural way and i had failed her. i felt like i had given up when i could've done more for her. i could've given her the best birth experience and i made the decision to put myself through seemingly unnecessary surgery and a drug drunk birth.
at the same time i feel like i was pushed into 'deciding' on a c-section. no one who was in the delivery room with me (dh, mil, my parents) even questioned me having a c-section despite me adamantly denying that i wanted one earlier during my labor. yet i can only blame myself for the decision. i still cry when i see a natural or vaginal birth on tv.
too make matters worse, now that i've had a c-section my chances of having to have another one are high and there are only 2 hospitals in my area that allow vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean) one is the hospital i gave birth at and the other is in a college city about 1 1/2 hours away from where we live now, a 1/2 hour from the small town our parents live in. so not easy to get there from our current home.
so we went in for a c-section at that time, dh got all suited up in scrubs and they wheeled me into surgery. i kept falling in and out of sleep and i was falling asleep as they tried to do an epidural. i was screaming from the pain of the shots to numb the area, i even swore at the anesthesiologist! the surgery itself only took about 20 minutes and dh was there throughout the whole thing. i could feel tugging and other sensations while they were pulling meg out but i couldn't see a thing.
meghan louise was born at 129pm on wednesday july 28th, weighing in at 7 lbs 8 oz!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
i should be resting...
but my to-do list is sooo long! i definitely shouldn't be blogging, but i wanted to get one in before tomorrow. when we went to the dr on 7-23 for my 39th week check up (i was at 39 weeks, 1 day) the baby is measuring 8 pounds 14 ounces (give or take a pound) so if she doesn't come on her own by tomorrow (7-26) at my dr appointment at 3:15 then i will be induced at 6pm at one of the hospitals in the big city.
i'd rather not be induced but she must come now because she is getting so big! i'm not very worried, d was 9 pounds 6 ounces when he was born and he came vaginally from my tiny older sister. kait and i got to watch d be born, i think we are very lucky to be able to experience child birth in such a close capacity. you know those 20 year old videos they showed you in health class do not do anything any justice.
in a related manner, i've named this blog 'margotsmom' but we're actually not naming the baby margot anymore! drew and i decided it is still a lovely name but we don't love it and i really wanted an irish name (drew's family is irish and i picked the middle name, louise, to honor my grandmother) so we have it narrowed down to:
teagan riley louise (g-last name)
or
meghan louise (g-last name)
i like both but i really love meghan. we decided to wait to see the baby to decide between the two names.
last fall, drew had 3 cousins in his uncle's family all give birth within 6 weeks of each other, 1 boy and 2 girls. the girls were born with red hair-like drew's paternal grandmother who passed away a few years ago. i would love to have babies with red hair and freckles, i think it is so adorable.
time to finish my to do list before our trip to the hospital!
i'd rather not be induced but she must come now because she is getting so big! i'm not very worried, d was 9 pounds 6 ounces when he was born and he came vaginally from my tiny older sister. kait and i got to watch d be born, i think we are very lucky to be able to experience child birth in such a close capacity. you know those 20 year old videos they showed you in health class do not do anything any justice.
in a related manner, i've named this blog 'margotsmom' but we're actually not naming the baby margot anymore! drew and i decided it is still a lovely name but we don't love it and i really wanted an irish name (drew's family is irish and i picked the middle name, louise, to honor my grandmother) so we have it narrowed down to:
teagan riley louise (g-last name)
or
meghan louise (g-last name)
i like both but i really love meghan. we decided to wait to see the baby to decide between the two names.
last fall, drew had 3 cousins in his uncle's family all give birth within 6 weeks of each other, 1 boy and 2 girls. the girls were born with red hair-like drew's paternal grandmother who passed away a few years ago. i would love to have babies with red hair and freckles, i think it is so adorable.
time to finish my to do list before our trip to the hospital!
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